Just realized I haven't posted since Thursday...is it because I have a lot to say or not so much? I guess the answer is both. Rolling into the weekend Roger was feeling better with each passing moment. We ended up going down to the boat Friday evening for the weekend. He worked on a couple projects and tinkered around the boat. The weather was simply perfect. Not toooo hot and not toooo cool and no rain. Good friends and family came down for a day of boating Sunday. All good stuff. The kind of stuff you just love to settle into...relax....and enjoy. Unfortunately, at least for me (I haven't asked Roger but suspect he feels the same) you just can't fully relax...can't fully let go.. Sad thing is that you know, just around the corner, is ANOTHER round of chemo. And so we will jump back onto the roller coaster for more of the ride from hell. Roger will slip back into his semi-zombie state. The house will get very quiet but for the TV droning away in the back ground and my constant nagging "have you had anything to eat or drink? you have to eat and drink. if you don't eat and drink, you'll get dehydrated and i'll have to take you to the hospital and you'll hate it. so have some water or Gatorade and how about a nice yummy protein bar?" Nag nag nag. 16 years of marriage...I'm a PRO!
I could go on and bore with you with endless details of our weekend but wont. Suffice to say it was great fun with tons of good food, laughter and maybe just a wee bit of alcohol. So here we are sitting at the end of Monday. The start of another work week, the start of another chemo week. Big ol' drama but not worth going into. Its funny how things that used to make me or make Roger crazy...pissed off...annoyed beyond words...all tend to fall in significance. Don't get me wrong. We both bitch up a fit about various topics - ESPECIALLY ME (as if any of you question who has the shorter fuse). But then, as if a pressure valve has been opened, the annoying issue/topic diminishes, the stupid person is, well still stupid (duh) but much less significant in the whole scheme of things. And you find yourself looking for the next focal point to help weather the oncoming storm.
We heard sad news today that one of Roger's former employees who had been battling brain cancer for many years passed away. It rendered us both speechless. 1) because he was very very young, early 30s, 2) every time someone passes from cancer...well, it leaves us speechless with all the thoughts we so desperately try to avoid, and 3) we can't help but be sad for the family and friends left behind. This guy was really sweet, very kind and very very sick. He would often only work a day every now and again. Roger told him no matter what, he always had a job at Fasttimes. Sadly, Roger hadn't heard from him in a almost a year and figured the battle may not be going well. The news today, though anticipated, was startling and sad.
Hoping your worlds are all blue skies and smooth sailing. Enjoy your people. Enjoy your people. And ignore all the stupid people. there are a BUNCH of them out there...they don't deserve the time or energy...I think I'm saying this as much for my own benefit as anyone else's ~angie
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