A Cosmic Bully?

Do you think there is such a thing as a giant cosmic bully? One that runs around stealing your lunch money, kicking you in the shins, or worse yet kicking you in your private parts? There are days we often wonder about this. Likewise, we wonder about karma - good and bad. Back to this cosmic bully. There really might be one. Really. Only some bully would keep pulling our pony tails and knocking the books out of our arms. What am I talking about you ask??? We just found out that Roger's sister Denise, who has fought through TWO bouts of cancer over the last 20 years...has been diagnosed with round number THREE of cancer. Three separate instances of cancer...really. This comes on the heals of Roger's mom having been diagnosed with cancer....and of course, Roger having been diagnosed with cancer spreading. Honestly, what are the chances??? OK, sure Denise and Roger's mom have the cancer gene but REALLY? That's FIVE (six if you count Roger's spreading cancer) bouts of cancer. Completely insane! Denise thinks they have to have some sort of Guinness Book of World Records-thing going. She's probably right.

Roger's comment about the whole situation is that he - they - we - are all numb to it. The punch in the gut you feel the first time or two just isn't there. You're just kinda numb and you say repeatedly "this just cannot be".

Keep a look out for this Cosmic Bully and turn the other direction to avoid him!

Despite the above, it was, for the most part, a good week. Roger felt better than he has for MONTHS, hell, better than he has for almost 2 years! He ate, and ate and ate. His weight is up. Well, its up for him as of late. He now weighs in at a whopping 148 pounds! The week included having dinner with our friends Brad and Julie - we grilled out pizza in the backyard. Roger felt good enough during the week to go to the boat and work on projects. He also worked on a shed we are having built here at the house. Roger also had enough energy to blow glass (I'll try to take some pictures to share). And, more than that....Roger was just plain ol' happy and chipper. I know. I know. It must all sound pretty simple and pretty silly but I gotta tell you, when you are in the throes of cancer and chemo and the day to day stuff is pretty darn daunting, then these silly, simple moments are pure heaven. This week at work when someone asked me about how Roger was doing, all I could do was smile endlessly and respond with an enthusiastic "it is a GREAT week..he feels good!"

Tomorrow we plan on doing yard work and shed work and then later in the afternoon trying to get together with my friends Susie and Rudy for an early dinner. Essentially squeeze in as much good stuff as we can before the next round of chemo scheduled for this coming Wednesday.

I hope to upload some photos soon but my camera is on the blink.

hugs to all. A & R