stop the chemo madness

the post will have to be quick tonight.  I've got a big work presentation tomorrow and am behind behind behind on everything.

We went to the oncologist today.  I won't bore you with all the stupid office organization nonesense which included us arriving for a 7:30 am appointment only to find out the necessary nurses were NOT there.  oooohhhhh.  Not the way to start the day.  Anyway.  We eventually saw Dr. B.  Roger's blood work looks good though his white blood cells are low.  We reported to him how badly this last session went and then told Dr. B we didn't want to pursue the last 2 chemo treatments.  He agreed and agreed quality of life important.  It was a strange meeting for both of us.  For me especially in that I'm such a freakin' fighter.  We have attacked this cancer-thing like it was a monster for the last 2 years.  We have continued to try and to try and to try...fight fight fight.  Somehow, someway the decision felt contradictory to everything we have stood for.  Nonetheless, we both have peace (as much as you can about any of this stuff).  Its just a day of mixed emotions.  Dr. B said Roger will have another CT scan in two months.  We'll track how his system is doing and if any tumors return.  Its all a little unnerving...but it is what it is.   In the meantime, its onward and upward to better times and more of a quality of life!!!   Time to get the fun on.   

We asked Dr. B how long (and if) Roger would start to feel better.  He said it takes about 2 months for the "good" cells to fully recover.   The doctor thought Roger would start to feel better slowly but should notice improvement after 30 days and definitely after 60 days.  I've never wished for time to hurry up....but now, knowing we might get him to a new "good" baseline....HURRY UP!!!

So, thats all for now.  I've got more stories but no time for them tonight.  hugs~ a