Despite the sun, it was somewhat dark

The sun was shining today.  Temps were a little chilly but ok.  And despite the sun and the not too cold temps, it was a pretty dark day.  Roger was in a dark space. Foul, short-tempered, grumpy, and tired.  A dark place.  Every attempt I made to engage him was swatted down with hostility.  So, it was (and still is)  pretty quiet around our house and in our car and in the doctors' offices. 

The day was consumed with two doctors' appointments (radiation oncologist and pain-management) and radiation.  Batteries of questions from each doctor's nursing staff, brief meetings with the docs and then we were on our way. 4 hours later and we were back home. 

Radiation is still the same.  No pain per se from the treatment but loads of exhaustion setting in.  The radiation oncologist and the pain doc both have suggested Ritalin (spelling?) to increase Roger's energy level during the day.  As of late, all he wants to do is sleep.  He often sits across from me with eyelids drooping like little kids do when they have missed their naps.  Roger actually asked the doctors for something to help increase his energy.  So, we're going to give this ADD drug a try.

The radiation oncologist offered Roger the option of skipping Friday's treatment and instead having one extra treatment next week.  In other words try to have a long weekend and maybe recoup a little from the treatment.  Roger initially said no.  We'll see how he feels on Thursday evening/Friday.  I think it would be a good idea....but its his decision as it has been all along.

Anyway, I don't have much for you today.  It was a bummer day.  Here's hoping tomorrow is a lighter, brighter day despite the situation.  ~ a