Happy sad, sad happy

Its Tuesday night, 10:30pm uk time. We are settled in our room, as we have been since 4:30. I'm sitting here on top over the bed duvet, Roger is snugged under it. The magic box (tv) is on as usual. We moved rooms by the wy...much bigger room with room to breathe. Of course as is our way, we have had loads of Wethington luck....tv didn't work, Internet hasn't worked well for over 24 hours, and miscellaneous other little challenges. Normally not an issue if you are out exploring the city but when you don't feel well and are in the room all the time....all pretty significant. The hotel staff arranged for us to have high tea in our room this afternoon. Tea and cocktails and finger sandwiches (not sandwiches made of fingers...just foo-foo little sandwich bits with no crust), little yummy sweets and scones. So I munched on yummies, drank 2 cocktails and a couple cups of tea while I packed. Roger had a couple bites and looked at the tv around me packing. After packing, I ventured out for a walk. Took a picture of Buckingham Palace. Was wishing I had my favorite photo subject with me, but he was back in bed. So I only took one picture. Was going to teach it...but technology has decided you should use your imagination.

Apologies ahead of time, I'm typing one handed on the iPad. Roger woke for a minute. I gave him a kiss, he said , "I love your tender sweet kisses" then he closed his eyes again while taking my hand. So now we are holding hands and I'm hunting and pecking the keys while my sweet fragile husband sleeps.

We have had a couple big day trips. Yesterday we went with Roger's mom and sister south to Winchester Cathedral.
Had lunch at this restaurant, bldg built in the late 1400 early 1500 s. soooooo cool. But a very big day for Roger. 2hours in the car and then a train ride back. He collapsed at the end of the day. I will be posting more pictures once I get home to my good ol pc.....but for now will post a few iPhone pics. (nope, not posting pictures. Keep trying and it won't work. Figure it won't do any good to have a meltdown Over pictures. So, pics later.) Have a small funny for you at my expense. We noticed some of my iPhone pics were foggy. I couldn't figure out why. Roger at some point said, "do you still have a protective film on the back of your phone?". WHAT???? What feeaking film? You can probably guess the answer to this rather LATE question..... Ugh.

Today we took the underground train to Camden Market - two train transfers and we arrived in this mecca of grundge, tattoo shops, and booth after booth of stuff. Roger loves (loved) the area. Feels very artsy fartsy. I was apprehensive about the trip there but Roger wanted to show me. He had been there before. So, I blocked and tackled the crowd, holding hands with my fragile husband, pulling us both through the crowd. All the while taking inventory of our persons to make sure we hadn't lost anything. We had lunch at a restaurant which immediately didn't sit well with Roger. Had to find a spot where he could recline a little and let the cramps/pain pass. Fortunately we found a canal bank in the sun. He rested while I popped back and forth between him and the various vendors' booths. After about 30-45 min he felt better and we explored a little more together.Then made our way back to the hotel.

It's been a hard trip in so many different ways. Logistical practical stuff like our first tiny room, Internet issues, technology losses with the iPad, etc. then there have been the physical issues for Roger - pain, discomfort, exhaustion, body failing you when the mind remembers, etc, and then there has been the emotional issue for both of us. We both realize just how fragile Roger really is. We recognize the difference between what we used to do and what we can now do...or not do. It hit Roger really hard the first couple days. It hit me hard the last couple days. So it's been a happy sad, sad hay trip.

It's too hard to post tonight. Part technology and part emotion. Will post more tomorrow when I get back to better f'ing Internet connection. Ugh.