Birthday wishes

Remember those day when you were a kid and, oh my gosh, you got sooooo excited about birthdays.  The lead up to it, the big day... "oh happy day, its my birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"  And it didn't matter if you got endless gifts (of course that was better if you did...), it was your day...your birthday.  Have to admit,birthdays used to be my thing.  I LOVED them. Hell, there would have to be the entire month for my birthday month.    I loved my own birthday and I loved the birthday of my family and friends.  Now, don't fool yourself I wasn't the best at sending cards or giving gifts especially as life got more complicated.  I really did love birthdays.  Now, like the American Cancer Society says, we need to celebrate birthdays - any and all birthdays. It signifies life and living!

Lest I forget, thank you thank you to all of you who have sent b-day wishes to my favorite person, my skinny-mini husband.  He looked at me sideways tonight when I got home from work.  Why he got so many texts and emails and calls for his birthday...   :-)   ..... I didn't comment.  Love love love all of you for doing that.  There is absolutely NOTHING and I mean nothing on this  world like feeling special.  AND all of you made Roger feel special.  So thank you again.

His day was a busy one as was mine but in different universes.  I was up by 5:30 and busy working on projects, out the door shortly thereafter.  Roger met with the landscaper (having some cool yard stuff done). Then his mom and her significant other, his sister  and his brotherinlaw came over late afternoon, then my parents came over this evening.  Busy busy busy.  Now unfortunately the various gods were not on his side and our hero Roger felt crappy.... again.  Can you imagine how daunting it is to feel sooooo poorly sooooo much????  When he is annoying (sorry but all you spouses out there - male or female - ya'll all annoy your partner at some point) I ask myself "how would you behave or what would you do if you haven't felt good for three years??"   Hmmmmm, easy one.  I'd be a stark raving BEOTCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday marked yet another of many many many doctors' appointments.  We met with Dr. Leagre, Roger's radiation oncologist (ONLY two hours after we arrived for his appointment...really).  He is "newer" in Roger's line up of doctors.  Kinda an odd dude, but has this really cool vibe and is uber intelligent.  He reviewed the same test results Birhirray had.  They had the same review.  Leagre was, however much more focused on the here and now and what it means in light of the test results.  A refresher:  the test results showed some of the the brain tumors have reduced in size,  some where no longer visable.  Whats that mean?  The radiation had positive impact.  Good stuff.  The doctor was downright enthusiastic the results were positive.  I asked him, what he anticipated.  He said the results could easily have shown no impact or the tumors could have grown.   So, with the positive impact of the radiation, he said he wanted to focus on nutrition or at least attempt.  He speculated if Roger had more meat on the bones, maybe, just maybe he might feel a little better and maybe just maybe the imaginary timeline (whatever the hell it is, whoeverthehell makes it) might be extended.  And just like that, we are back to trying nutrition drinks and energy bars and anything which might put meat on the bones.  i think I'll only buy one or two every now and again.  Won't even tell you how much of this stuff I've thrown away. Roger doesn't seem to like any of it, but has renewed energy to try. Yet again, we will try.

I vowed to get to bed early tonight.  Two presentations tomorrow and way to much to do to get ready for our trip next week (yes, NEXT week).  Where oh where does the time go? 

night-y-night or is that nite-e-nite?  you get the pictures.

Cross you fingers tomorrow is better for Roger and put int a little wish/hope my presentations go well. 

xxooxxoo ~ angie and roger




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