Sometimes it just takes guts

Its Tuesday night. The eve of another chemo session.  'Nuff said.

Roger had his MRI today. Its not a difficult test per se but weighed heavy on both our minds....especially Roger's.  The other nuance we didn't anticipate is the physical difficulty.  You have to remain perfectly still on the exam table in a horizontal position.  Well, for Roger....that's really tough.  He can't lay on his back.  His options are to lay on his left side or sit up right.  Anything else causes him to reflux and causes pain in his chest.  So, to have to lie still for 25-30 minutes while this incredibly loud machine booms in your ears.  We hope to find out test results tomorrow when we see Roger's oncologist prior to getting his chemo infusion.

The air is pretty thick with anxiety today.  Anxiety for the unknown of the test results.  Anxiety for the KNOWN aftermath of chemo...and its looming return.  And, just general anxiety.

Board up the windows, hunker down and prepare for the storm we call cancer treatment....chemo.

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